Tonight’s post is a somber one, so you are forewarned. Today I buried my best friend. There’s a hole inside me that seems so incredibley huge, I feel as though I lost a portion of my body. We had a beautiful day and a touching ceremony. Everyone was absolutely wonderful, kind and supportive. Our family, friends and God circled around us and gave us strength. I’m feel so blessed to have such a support system that I know most people don’t have. It’s been such a comfort to know if I need anything, there’s always someone willing to give me a hand. It was especially important today, as I said good-bye to the man of my heart. I felt my heart break to pieces as my children said good-bye to their father with tears rolling down their little cheeks. I’ve asked God so many times in the past few weeks, to let me take on some of their pain so it won’t hurt them so much-as I’m sure both of my parents have felt about me. I’d do anything to make this better for them. My peace comes in the fact that I know Chris is with God, and not feeling all the pain any more. As we drove into the cementy today, Jaxson said “Oh, this is nice. Daddy’s going to be on the top of a mountain!” (The plot is on the top of a large hill.) Yes, Chris is on the top of the mountain, and he’s climbed a long way to get there. He made it to the top, and now he is getting his reward with God. We will all miss him and love him so much.
I will still be posting, as I’ve had many requests to do so. I feel this part of the journey is still a part to share. I’m not the writer Chris was, but I will try to do my best. Somewhere in my heart, I seem to hear him telling me to keep this going, especially for the people who are in the same place I am now. Thank you to everyone for praying for Chris and his family today. And I’d like to thank everyone for coming today or yesterday. It was great to see so many people who Chris loved so much. I’m sorry I wasn’t able to talk to all of you, I was trying, but Chris was loved by so many it was impossible to get to everyone. I wish you all a peaceful night.