So as some of you don’t know, my children don’t read the blog very often. Sometimes Chris or I would/will ask them about a post or get their thoughts on something we are working on, but for the most part, it’s not something they look at very often. But Brenden did read the last post on the bowling. He read it and gave me the Brenden Baty “what’s this all about?” look. I asked him what the look was for and he replied “thunder is caused by the heating and cooling of air from lightning.” I said “that may be true in science, but I like to think Dad’s up bowling with his Grandma Baty.” He thought about it for a little while, as Brenden does, and then replied, “then the lightning must be the spark from the friction caused by the bowling pins hitting each other.” “Excellent idea!”, I said. If we are going with the bowling theme, we might as well go all the way with it. So as the last storm hit, Brenden would say something like “That must have been a strike!” if it was a loud thunderclap with lots of lightning. It’s fun when he can take an idea and run with it.
On another note, we are doing o.k. The boys and I went to my parents lake place this past week since they were on spring break-or I should say “winter’s back” break.(It snowed about 10 inches there.) My parents place is kind of a safe haven for us right now as Chris has not spent a lot of time there in the past couple of years. I would take them there when he had chemo so Chris could get some rest, peace and quiet. When he did make the trip, he usually did a lot of sleeping. The kids don’t have a lot of memories of Chris there, so they got a little more of a grieving break for a few days. We definitely have had our moments. Sometimes when the garage door opens, I think, “Oh, Chris is home.” Only to remember that he’s gone. The kids seems to have the most dificultly at bedtime, which I find interesting because that’s always been “snuggle time” with mom. I think it’s just a time in the day they’re not so busy and they have time to think about things. We’ve all had bad dreams, and our crying jags. I’m wondering how long it will be before I attempt to wear makeup again. My mom is still staying with us, which is such a wonderful thing. Sometimes it’s hard just to get out of bed, let alone take care of the kids and the house. My brain doesn’t seem to be functioning at full capacity. It’s hard to concentrate a lot of the time. I feel like a zombie for part of the day. I also don’t have a lot af patience(not that I had much to start with.) I hope that changes soon.
I’d like to thank everyone for their continued support the past week. My children and I appreciate that from all of you. I’d also like to thank our families who keep taking care of us through this time. I’m not sure what we would do without you all!
Peace to all!