Good evening to all! The boys and I are doing ok. Yesterday I went and ordered the marker for the grave. Not a fun task. So many options for such a simple marker. My parents went with me to help me out. After we picked out the marker we stopped to see Chris. It was quite hard to be there. It was a beautiful day and all I could do was stand and cry over the grave. I think it won’t be quite so bad once the grass grows over the dirt, and it doesn’t seem like it was just yesterday he was here with me. During the course of my week I can at least forget for periods of time that he’s gone, but standing at his grave is a hard, cold reality for me. There’s just no denying he’s gone when I’m there. I showed the kids a mock up of the marker and they thought it was fine. Brenden seems to have concerns about going to the grave site. It’s very difficult for all of us. I told him we would wait until next month. I think they need a little more time before I take them there. I always think if something is hard for me, it will be worse for them. I know I’m wrong in some cases, but I’d rather error on the side of caution. That’s part of my “Momma Bear” make-up. Jaxson’s been really out-of-sorts for the past few weeks, very touchy. Brenden’s been a little that way too, just not as much.
I hope everyone is doing well. Thank you all for your continued support and prayers. It means a lot to us!