Hello to everyone! Happy MEA for those of you in Minnesota. My kids were bored by noon today, so it was time for them to start fighting. Fun for all! We have had a tough month. Fall was always Chris’s favorite time and we have a lot of memories we’re dealing with. We’ve had an emotional month with Chris’s birthday-it hit us all hard. I’ve had many emails and phone calls letting me know that people are thinking of him or missing him. It’s comforting to hear that I’m not the only one. After 7 months, we are still adjusting to life without him. It’s alot of changes to go through. I also quit my job after 19 years at Proex. It was time to do something that I could spend more time with my boys and not be working as many weekends.
So, we are going through many changes and still trying to cope with our loss. I’ve had people who have lost loved ones recently asking me when does the pain get better? I always begin my reply with, “It’s different for everyone.” It’s not a question I can really answer, just that with me, it goes in waves. I’ll be fine for a while, and then WHAM! Something will trigger the grief. It seems that way for my kids, too. But they are young and don’t have as many memories and younger kids live more in the moment-not as much in the past or future. I find myself wondering what Chris would think about different decisions I make. But he’s not here, so I hope he would approve of how I’m handling everything. I’m just trying to do my best.
I hope everyone has a great weekend. I heard it’s suppose to be nice, at least here in Minnesota. Best enjoy it before it gets too cold!For those of you not counting yet, it’s 65 days until Christmas!(Brenden’s birthday is the week before, so my household has been counting down for a while now!)
Love and prayers,